Girls Night Out!

I need a girls night out! I love my sweet hubby and baby boy, but sometimes a Momma can only take so much! I need to just do girl stuff-talk-laugh-shop-beautify-whatever!

So, I realized last week how lonely I am. I was watching Jacob and Izzy (she is cute and two and she comes over on MWF to play) and all of a sudden I wanted to cry. I stepped into the pantry (aka my prayer closet), sat on the stool, and cried out to God.

Being away from family and friends when you have a baby is tough. Since moving to Fort Worth I have met a few great friends. I just need to invest more time to make them grow. I was actually kinda jealous because I have been reading a blog about a Mom who has Quads that are a few months younger than Jacob. I cried because I do not know how she does it. And, how she makes time for herself-to help her friends-and really enjoy her marriage. Right off God told me not to compare myself. But, I just wanted someone to come over and talk to me, or take Jacob so I can do something else for a moment. I miss volunteering at the Ronald McDonald House-I miss being involved in church-and I miss fishing alone with my hubby.

I would love to have Mom close by so I can bring Jacob over and spend time with her. I miss my friends who had babies when I was still single. They influence me in raising Jacob and I want them to know that. I miss my simple life In Amarillo. It was safe and warm. I just miss home. Things were not always great in Amarillo, but I felt safe. I guess I am still trying to find myself in our new surroundings.

So, as I sat in the pantry, with the kids outside the door playing, I realized how sad I felt, but then how grateful I am to God for this change. I miss shopping and buying whatever I wanted-I miss going on weekend trips. But, Justin and I are growing up...and I feel like a grown woman for the first time in my life. I have an amazingly gifted baby who gives great hugs and sloppy kisses. There are so many women out there who yearn for that baby and never know what it feels like. And, it feels amazing to hold that baby! How selfish to think of myself as so poor. You know, God knows what we need. God has given exactly what one Mom needs and He has given exactly what I need.

So, if anyone wants to get together for a Girls Night Out....please let me know. I will gladly listen to all your stories. I want to be a better friend to you...and I want you to know I appreciate and love you!!!!