Rant

I am kinda perturbed or something. My husband is heading out for "guy's night" with the co-ops at work. No problem. Until I think about all the times I have been left to care for Jacob alone. I'm not just talking about my usual stay-at-home Mommie time, although that adds up. I am talking about after hours time when I might get a few minutes to be alone. Many people have been very kind in offering the suggestion and advice that Justin and I need time toegtehr without the little one. Well, maybe I want "Me" time. I do want time alone with Justin, but that is another story.

Okay, so let's bring this into focus. I am, somewhere inside, a little aggravated that this will be Justin's who knows what number of times he has, out side of work, left me for a guy or fishing thing. Do I get to have a girl or whatever thing? If you count my hair cut 2 months ago, an occasional grocery shopping trip alone, and having coffee with Brandy months & months ago, then maybe that is okay. But on the frequency of Justin's alone time compared to mine, there is a stark contrast. Now, I am going to Amarillo to see friends and family in two weeks. Hopefully, I will be able to leave Jacob with a Grandparent so I can meet with friends. But, most likely, Jacob will come along 9 of 10 times since there are many friends (and a Great Grandma) who have not seen Jacob yet. So my Amarillo trip, although expected to be a HUGE refreshment for myself, does not, in my opinion, constitute much alone time.

This is my conversation with Justin last night.

"I want you to go, seriously. I think you need to hang out with the guys before they go back to school."

"Okay, I already got tickets to the game and that includes all the food I can eat."

"Okay, so do you want to take the car (we share 1 vehicle) or is your friend bringing you home?"

"He'll bring me home. But, maybe, if the game goes to like, Midnight, I should sleep on his couch. Then I could just go to work from there."

"Okay? Have you thought through that last comment?"

A few hours later...

"Remember you said you would treat me equally. If you go out without child, then I get the same in return. But if you go to work at 8 am, and come home the next day 5 pm, when will you return that favor?"

"Huh?"

"When will I be given the same time off?"

"I'll make it up to you, I promise."

So the conversation ends with a promise and no plan to return the favor.

Yeah. I have heard this before. I think my husband needs to realize that putting me off, containing me, and exposing me to hours of whining or crying from a small child will eventually make me go nuts; I am already grouchy. And, I'm too young to be grouchy!!! On top of that, why do I want to spend alone time with my dear hubby when I cannot even get alone time for myself? This is part of the reason I begged and hinted to my parents that I needed to visit soon-for my sanity. Thankfully we arranged a time for Jacob and I to be picked up and relocated to Amarillo for 4-5 days before shipment back to Home Sweet Bentley.

Does your husband leave you with the kids? Does he return the favor?

And, if he doesn't then what do you do and think?

And, do you agree that you need time to yourself or with the girls so you can be a better wife?

Or am I just overreacting as usual???