Update

Last night was not as bad as I thought it would be. Jacob obviously was not happy Daddie was not home. After putting Jacob to bed, I stayed up reading the "Super Nanny" book along with viewing a recorded episode. I realized that I was more afraid to be left alone with Jacob all day. What if I could not handle it? What if I go nuts? So, I just took one thing at a time. I was not at all a great Mommie last night. It was very hard to deal with a more than average fussy, determined tot. I screamed once or twice and then stopped realizing it was going to be okay. It was a wrestling match to get Jacob inside from playing, bathed/brushed, dressed, and put into bed. He made it, and you know what, I made it too!

Justin had a great, refreshing time at the ball game. That is great! I am especially thankful to Trey for bringing him home so I would not be alone all night! (Justin and I have not spent a night apart for almost 2 years). And, he called me yesterday at work to say he wanted to make a plan for me to have time away from the house - alone. Here is my plan. I am going grocery shopping with Brandy and then I am having lunch with Patty. I am so excited! I am also excited that Justin did not put me off this time. I was praying about my post and about my responsibility to our marriage. It's okay to be upset. It's okay to vocalize it so you understand it. Then, you step away and let it work. In my prayer life lately, I have been asking God to change me. I do not want to be a wife that makes her husband feel more welcome on the roof of the house than inside it's doors. I want to be a blessing, but not a doormat. I want to be a team and not just mindless followers. At the same time, I want Justin to be the best husband he can be. I pray that he becomes stronger and confident in Christ, that he considers me in decisions, and that he becomes an even greater leader of our family.I have to say the prospect of going out on Saturday makes me a better wife and friend to Justin. It's hope! I can get out!!!

When you are upset with your husband, what do you do? How do you work it out? Let me know!