If you heard a child screaming without end at the huge consignment sale in town this morning...that was my child. Two very sweet older ladies bent over to calm him and noticed how red he was. He's a breath holder. He was breathing. He was screaming without end. Normally I would pack up and leave. I told him, "This is a one time opportunity and we are going to stay here. You can sleep in your stroller, and Mommie loves you." That didn't help. Let's just say I have never been so embarrassed or frustrated with Jacob. Now, it is true that Jacob has been ill the past 4 days. I thought he would be just fine for a few hours especially since I treated him to Chickfila and playtime earlier. Thankfully the nice volunteers felt sympathy for me and will hold my items until I return this evening. There was no way I could stand in line with all the goodies I found while Jacob persisted on screaming. Can you guess what he is doing right now? Screaming. I have fed him, changed him, held him, read to him, rocked him, watered him, watched tv with him...everything...and he will not stop screaming. He is in his crib. He has been crying for over and hour. I have gone in to check on him. This is what happens: Scream, scream. Chunk paci, chunk anything else. Mommie pick me up. Kick Mommie. Mommie tries not to let him go. Ouch, that's my tummy. He's down.
Mommie understands Jacob wants to play, but after 5 minutes he begins to scream again. He looks overly tired, and he probably is. But, enough with the screaming. It's like he woke up and turned in to a different child. Where is my cooperative, loving little boy? In just a few we will be off again to see Justin (and return to the consignment sale so I can finish my hunt). He needs to sleep...so do I, after all I am in my 3rd trimester. Justin plans to take Jacob to the park; I have a feeling that will be full of screaming. You know, I am not a Mom who believes in ignoring her child when they scream. Today's screaming was so unlike any other time. I did ignore him today, or at least try, while looking for baby girl rompers and onesies. I even found him a Thomas Train. The only time he has not screamed today has been during the 1.5 hours since leaving the sale and made it home. Justin and I had lunch together in the car while he slept. That was nice. As soon as garage door opened, Mr. Fussy Pants came back. He has not had fever today. His eyes are a little dark, and he is eating a little better than the past few days. I do not know what to do. I kept praying for God's peace in my heart while seeking to understand Jacob. Maybe I am a bad Mom and he is still sick. Maybe he is just playing games with me. I don't know. He is just super clinging to Justin and I - he is also very hard to please right now.
He is sleeping now.
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Sorry you had such a day! Asher does that sometimes, he woke up at 5:30 this morning screaming and it took us a good half hour or more to calm him. That sounds like nothing compared to what you describe, but in the moment, you feel helpless. How can you console your child, the poor thing is beyond reason. You feel like an idiot for not knowing what to do to make it better. But you are not a bad mom. You try different things, and you just can't ever know what the right thing is ahead of time. He's ok eventually, and you move on. Such is life with a toddler!!!
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